I need a shoulder.. to cry on

all this time I was hiding it. i was running and lying to my self :')'

I just want to cry
and have you think of . of being hated and avoided by the person
your heart truly dears?
He's so important to me but for him I'm just a piece of dust.


-a woman sheds her tears not because she wants to look weak, but because she cant hold pretending to be strong :'(

I'm always running , pretending to be strong , faking a smile
I just want to tell both of you , father , a*** ,
IT HURTS

a dream come true :))

all this time I wanted to play DRUMS
akward is it? hehe XD
but really
I like it because
yaaah . just like
XDD
but in the song simple plan - perfect I really fell in love with a drum ! :)

AND NOW I CANT WAIT FOR MONDAY ! :)
o7.o5.2o1o :)
my first drum lesson XD

Graduates :)

congratulations for my brother for graduating :'D
ILYSM !
also :
*Cheryl Pidono
*Andre Bundharsjah
*Pamela Vashika
*Ricco Lesmana

and others :)

may your path is bright for the future :)
thanks to you all for guiding me always and always
helping me
making me laughh :))
thanks friends . :)

God.

We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
so MY reason to live was to love Him like He loved me :)
what's YOURS ?

Lyrics : We were The reason

too many thoughts

my mom says he left because of A
but my pa says he left her because of B
I dont know wich side is right or wrong anymore
MY MOTHER IS NOT A WRECK !
Yes , I am disappointed in you !!
I love my mom
so I'll stand on her side and wont say anything
I Love you pa , but I love mama more :)
sorry :')
THEY'VE GIVEN ME TOO MANY THOUGHTS
I don't want to grow up !
I WISH TO BE A KID

FOREVER !!! TT_________TT

the first time I was told :)

when I was sad and frowning at german class
someone (my daddy : pangraksa alam (NOT REAL DADDY)
told me this
"lu udah jelek tambah jelek aja kalo cemberut ! senyum dikit kek ! lu tuh lebih bagus kalo senyum ! "
and I was moved ,
XD
I was happy that someone actually like my smile
and happy someone told me to keep smiling !
FIGHT CHA ^o^

by my brother *lg terobsesi sparta -.-

where are you

aaa dimana sihh >.<
udah lama ga OL km kangennnnnn :(

UDAH BUAT PERSIAPAN KADO ULTAH ! hohoh XD

lollipop : 30 rb
Celengan mangkok : 70rb
Baju : 130 rb
Box : 65 rb
Pin : 6 rb *purchased :D
rubriks : 70 rb
*kalo bisa : jaket giordano *entah hargany O__O
FOR MY SELF : gelang giordano , should I buy for him too? :P

cry

what are my reasons to cry ?
why am I so weak ??
I KNOW I'LL NEVER LOVE THIS WAY AGAIN
it hurts so much
to know the person you love , hates you
because a little mistake ..
I always say sorry
for a thousands times , but
you never say its okay
not a singgle word came from you mouth that made me happy
i miss you warm smile
and your voice calling me
i miss your warmth
:'(
I'd wish somehow you'd forgive me , I oray everyday to God
to protect you and make you happy
but
I want me to be happy too,,
I want to say I'm sorry..
is it too late ?? :'(

Dalai Lama Personality Test

1-st question. Priorities in your life:

1: LOVE
2: FAMILY
3: CAREER
4: MONEY
5: PRIDE


2-nd question:

cute implies your own personality.
independent implies personality of your partner.
small implies the personality of your enemies
sweet- It is how you interpret sex.
lovely implies your own life.


3-rd question:

andre - Someone you will never forget.
nia - Someone you consider your true friend.
mami fina - Someone that you really love.
maria - Your twin soul.
axel g. - Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life.

You have to send this test to as many persons as your favorite number (7) and your wish will come true on the day that you recorded (tuesday).

http://www.wordofmouthexperiment.com/dedpyhto/tests/tibetian/index.htm

akirnya !

akirnya dia tau selama ini yg gw pendem !!
gw tkt dia malah marah.. amin dh ga
soalnya td masi bercanda bareng" XD
plis jangan sampe lagii..
>.<

HOW CAN I SMILE IF THEY KEEP ON BULLYING ME LIKE THIS ?!

So tired..

I'm so tired..
:'(

gw emang goblok :')

buku gw yg ada tulisan nama dia ketinggalan di rumahny dia
trus dia baca"
gw dikatain + dimarain dehh
aduh gw jadi gak enak ama dia !
tau ahh !!! gw gk tau mau gimana
gw mau mnta maaf
gagaaaaaal lagii ~

kapan ada suara yg manggil gw dd lg kek dulu ??
gw ga tau lagiii
gw capeeekk .. :'(

:)

really going to aussiee !!
aaaaa
thanks papaaaaa
I love youu ! XD
ehaduuhh
mestin ada tes segala pula -,-
IELDS .
hduh cant wait for 2 more years ! ^-^

today !

hr ini retret hari ini retret ^-^
ga OL 3 days daah T-T
my karma at plurkk ! nooooooo T-T
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3 hari ini ak bkl kangen bgt sama kmu !! elmo ABc ! :)

bsokk !!

besok akirnya retret !!!
ga OL 3 hari dehh !!
byebye ABc !! :'(
hahahaha
cuma bgg nih ..
lg gaenk sama ****** , gimana dong ? T.T

so what ever !

klo lo mo benci gw
gw cuma bisa IYA AJA DAH karena gw gabisa ganti perasaan org
tapi klo lu tadi bener" mo damai gw cuma ia aja karena
gw ga pingin punya masalah sama lu
kita udah impas ok ? gw bayar deh kerugian
berapasih ??
mulai dari 0
and honestly i dont really care
but it drove me into stress land !
what a wonderful land ~

but now for my own sake I wont care anymore !

i HATE problems !!!!

kenapa sih masalah selalu dateng ??
apa maunya ?!
APA ?!
capek ah
kenapa ada yg namany masalah ??
KENAPA ?!
kekny kedamaian tuh cuma mimpi gw yah ??
yaudah klo mu temenan ia aja gw ! klo ga yaudah !
if you love me , i love you too :)
but if you hate me , I'LL HATE YOU MORE >:D
taw ahh
cape gw ngurusinny,,
yg 1 lom slese dateng yg lain !!
biarkanlaaahh !! XD

can't imagine how embaresed I will be at 19 feb

aduww""""""
19 feb bakal dance disekolah !!!
sumpah bakal malu bangeeettt
gw agak suka ngedance cuma biasa aja gt d ..
tp klo disuru performance ..
ADUH PALING GABISA DEH !
demam panggung tingkat berap
pasti gemeteran nih !!!!!!!!! \
uhuhuhuhuuuuuuu diliat sama piip lagi !!!
OMG ~ :'(
God I pray you'll be my guide !!!
moga" ngedance ber - 6 ga akan ada yg keluar lg !
AMIN

duh ga sabar retret !!!

ah ret ret masi 5 days to go !! aduuh buruan doong !!
ckckck\
yg mesti dibawa :
♥ alat kreativitas yg bisa ditempel di kertas kain karet busa
♥lem (fox / uhu)
♥vto kel (5) ^-^
♥alat tulis + gambar
♥obat" pribadii
♥payung lipet
♥jaket

pakaian :
o santai sopan rapi celana selutut kebawah
o jaket
o sendal jepit buat cewek yg formal

kelompok 'MAGENTA'
FASILITATOR = ci fenny
anggota
· tesa
· ci pamela
· ci livia
· ci gitta

skype is fun!! :)

jadi sneng skype ama elii !! ^^
hasil vtonya aneh" hahaha :D

problems suck !!!!

gila gw benci banget sama yg namanya MASALAH
apa lagi sama temen bae gw !!
gw pengen cepet" baikan !!!
God help me !!!